Update

I'm getting sad and depressed yet again. Outlook of school is very gloomy, tired, and demoralizing. Maybe I have too much examination revision to do. Or Design & Technology work. Or family problems. Or the complicated friendships. Or the confiscation of laptop (which I just got it back today again hehe, but the condition of it has just got worse). Or the bad performance of recent tests. Or the dampening of my Thai language version survey form. Or all of the above. I'm beginning to withdraw interest from going to school again. By the way this week is the first anniversary of my more severe depression phase that I had last year. The only thing exciting is the arrival of my American cousin, Sasha, this 14th of May, 11.35pm, on United Airlines flight UA 895, but that's in the middle of my Mid-Year Exams, which means I don't get to go to the airport to fetch her. I really don't know what can make me happy. Maybe I'll get some enlightment after I read my 'The Complete Idiot's Guide to the Psychology of Happiness'. And maybe some spirituality too. Here's a Portuguese song to help turn my unhappiness around, but I doubt it'll do much:
Lyrics and translations:
LONGE DO MUNDO

Eu não sei se vais ouvir-me,
Se estás ai ou não,
Eu não sei se compreendes,
Esta oração

Se eu pra ti sou uma estranha,
Que o coração perdeu,
É ao ver-te que eu pergunto,
Se já foste como eu.

Refrão:

Longe do mundo,
Perto de ti,
Peço conforto,
De quem eu fugi,

Perdida ,esquecida,
Eu oro aqui ,
Longe do mundo,
Mas perto de ti

Peço conforto,
E nada mais,
Na voz dos que sofrem,
Padecem sinais,

Vêem de longe,
E chegam por fim,
Quem vai ouvi-los,
Quem sofre assim,

Eu não sei se vais lembrar-te ,
De um coração tão só,
Coração tão vagabundo,
Que perde ,chora todos os dias,

Refrão:
Longe do mundo,
Mas perto de ti,
Peço conforto,
De quem eu fugi,

Venho de longe ,
E chego por fim ,
Quem vai ouvir-me ,
Chamar assim.

Perdida ,esquecida,
Aqui,
Ao orar,

Longe do mundo,
Mas perto de ti . . .


AWAY FROM THE WORLD

I do not know if you hear me,
If you're there or not,
I do not know if I understand,
This prayer

If I am a stranger for you,
The heart is lost,
It is when seeing you that I ask,
If you were like me too.

Chorus:

Away from the world,
Near you,
Please comfort,
From who I ran away,

Lost, forgotten,
I pray here,
Away from the world,
But close to you,

Please comfort,
And nothing more,
In the voice of suffering,
Suffer signs,

See from afar,
And finally arriving,
Who will listen to them,
Who suffer thus,

I do not know if you remember,
Heart of a just,
Heart (is feeling) so lousy,
Who loses, cries every day,

Chorus:
Away from the world,
But close to you,
Please comfort,
From who I ran away,

I come from afar,
And finally come,
Who will hear me,
Call it.

Lost, forgotten,
Here,
To pray,

Away from the world,
But near you. . .